Blessing and Delay

Thanks everyone, for praying me through this time at home. It has been wonderful. God continues to meet me in times of delight and desperation. I need Him and He is here. I am so blessed.

It's difficult to describe what God has been doing in my heart lately but I tried to explain it in the following poem, if you're interested. You might know that I was in a serious car crash last weekend. I won't go into detail, I just thank God we are alive and are all still able to walk. As you can imagine, this has delayed my return to Guyana. Please pray for healing for the 3 of us in the car and that I'll be able to get back to Guyana by June. Thank you so much. -Em

Here's the poem...

Steps weighed by hesitations
Heart, flimsy with aspirations
It's just not enough
To know so little of Your love
And drink bottles of hope laced with speculations

Ashamed at how quickly Your answers can shift
One sideways glance sees instructions drifting away
I could find better places to stay, easier songs to play

I want to hear from You
So I drive in cirlces, in search of a view
To distract from distractions that You're speaking through
Strengthen my feet, Lord, don't let me wander away

I've used up my current excuses
Pulled a few deals from the jar
Negotiated, while You waited
No, You haven't changed at all

Why is it so hard to trust you?
After all, we've been here before
I promise this time, I will believe
Won't doubt You again, can't be sure

I ought to be trembling in Your presence
But I'm tripping at every turn
If that's what it takes to get me on my face
Then pull the roots up a little more

What on earth have I given,
Compared to Your sacrifice?
I've barely a clue, of what You've been through
Just to give me life

For now, I'm through with proving
That I can figure out what You're doing
I just need to hear You say,
Everything will be more than okay
Help me to hear You today

Oh Lord, my God, this is my plea

Jesus, please abide with me
I am desperately longing to walk right next to You
And I don't want to imagine a moment without You
Surround me with Your presence,

Father, flood my heart with Your truth
Stir my soul so I will rest nowhere else except in Your arms,
May my passion be fueled by Your sacrifice.